First day!

It's actually my first day of 17 yo. I've learned so much in these past few years.... and few months
real friends are there for you no matter what... but those that doesn't show it only when you will incomes in a real problem. seriously, appreciate what you have before time force you to loose what you had!
YOLO, i'm finally 17 yo!

Regret?

I realised, you will learn a lot with the UPS and DOWNS that will enter in your life. Once, I've asked myself if I should regret? I once regret to be what I've been through but my friend told me that '' If we, could change those regrets, they wouldn't be such a imperfect world.'' Because of that, I though that my worries would be the end of the world, that my problems are major and I won't resolve it but the real problems that I've income with, was fear. FEAR sometimes can get you.   He can let you though that you were strong enough to overcome all the problems.But THAT makes you weak & blind. You are actually really afraid to face what you were avoiding from the start. The real questions wasn't Should I regret? but more Should I face it? Certainly, those actions that you made, those actions could really change all the matters. You always have to think about the consequences before being sure of what you think. I made a lot of mistakes and a lot of choices but those desicions are helping of being a better person. Right now, I'm not saying that all my desicions was right but one person told me that ''you're the only playing, I can be there for you but you are the only one that can make ''changes'' to your life.  I'm not here to decide what you should do but more like an advicer and help you to make decision.'' What happened to me,make me realise that I learned a lot from it: bad or good. They are a lot of people that enter and leave in your life but they're just a small part of it that are really what you thought they were and can make you choose to  loose everything for them. My mistakes was I was so afraid to loose,but what I really  lost was; myself. I lost the one that live like their are no tommorow. That little girl that WASN'T AFRAID at all. The one that didn't know what was fear. The one that only could smile and tell stupid jokes to make everyone happy. I'm not back because I can't go back in time to be what I've been but those decisions I've made, was positive. I could say I don't regret it because it's no longer an option  but more what you have to confront. The advice I'm giving to those people that will  need me when they want would be, ''don't force yourself or don't make conclusion so easily and just let it be.'' You have your entire life to think bout it so enjoy and live your life to the fullest!
YOLO#

THANK YOU ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS, WHAT I'VE BECOME TODAY IS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. I CAN'T TELL HOW MUCH I'M THANKFUL. THANK YOU<3

Confused but I think i've recovered from it! Today, I went to Dt with my homie faye! Thanks to you because you've help me a lot from everything. I saw that you've become a better person this year, maybe not perfect but I can see that even our ups and downs. You're the ONE that's there for me. You're the one that's help me get through all thoses struggles. You're the one that were there for me no matter what happened! I feel really thankful in everyway!Thank you my dear Faye!  愛你FiFi<3

Today was a tough day for sure! I can't forget you but I need to do this for myself. Distance might be a negative way to resolve the problem but I'm doing this for us. I rather live and hurting than seeing us to be in fight! #giveupcanbeagoodpoint

16 minutes before....

It's almost 12 and its currently really dark. I'm trying my best to sleep but really can't. I'm thinking of a good way to wake up tommorow morning at 7am. It's going to be really difficult. God damn, trying to sleep while watching dramas! #YOLO

It's already the end of my christmas vacation...... felt like it past so fast really! I felt like the first day of vacation was yesterday! BUT NOT I slept at 5h40 and WOKE UP at 9h. Omg WHAT's HAPPENING TO ME! I need to take the chances to sleep more because when school start I won't  have any chances....3hours & its Lois's birthday... I'm wondering if Fay is coming back right now? She went to NY without me & Jasmine. I thought she wasn't really important (okaie not like that...just I didn't know  I'll miss her so badly) Before she went there, I talked with her on tha phone. She was like ah don't be sad it's not like we never tried to be seperate for a long time... I was like yeah but stills I'll miss you for real.
#girlsmomentsarejustsocomplicated