Struggling on stage!

Recently, I've been struggling for some reason. I've always ask myself what's the point to be that caring: Being mad for some reason that  aren't A reason but for real it was more for myself. The real reason it's because I WAS STRUGGLING WITH MYSELF........................
My head told to believe in them & their's a part of myself that's telling me that I can't because for me feeling betrayed or UNIMPORTANT its something I really can't support and when It comes from your best friends its harder to believe AND FORGET! maybe I'm being too exagerated but ITS HOW I FELT ITS HOW I AM & IF they can't accept the fact that im like this I SERIOUSLY RATHER NOT HAVING ANYBODY BY SIDE! I rather leave this world with no one by my side  and struggling for the rest of my life!

But I know theirs a lot of friends that's always standing beside me and  I didn't realise they were there from the start , from the whole beginning<3 sincerely thank you my people<3 love youuu

Real or not real?

It is REAL ? 

Sometimes you're just asking yourself if you should believe it or not. You're asking yourself it you're not thinking too much, but why we always have to wonder what other people think. I wish I could be the one that's right but every time my hopes are too high. Sometimes I just wish I could stop thinking bout it even for a day. I know that it's not working, why I need to force myself to think what I shouldn't! I know my friends are always there for me and I'm trying my best to be positive and show them my best but It ain't working right now! Every time I tell myself to forget him but there's a voice inside that's still thinking bout him and telling myself that maybe he likes me too.I really have to wake up and face reality.

From now on, I make the biggest decision ever; TO NOT EVER THINK BOUT HIM ANYMORE 

or I'LL GET DEEPLY HURT! 

thanks to y'all that have been supporting me from the start

GOD BLESS YOU GUYS 

I've learn a lot these days, sometimes you just feel so depressed that you want it to be done! just think bout what you held on for so long!

What is love?

These days, I WAS REALLY CONFUSED because I had a crush on someone! This totally changed my mood from HAPPY TO SUPER SAD! WHEN I said super sad I meant like really sad! Everyone at school tought I was tired; ye im so tired.... hahahahaha:D
but after talking with my brown friend, kinda racism right? NO NO SHE ALWAYS CALLED ME ASIAN BUDDY!!!!! HAHAHA but I'm not kidding  It was like a part of myself that had been crashed down by a car.... we can call that a high school crush.....
I think I never felt that way before, maybe once in secondary one but yall know that I was young .... I couldn't feel the same. SO I talked to her and she was like oh dont get hurt because of a stupid boy, you deserve better than that and all. I felt so important all of a sudden I felt like YES I COULD HAVE BETTER THAN HIM SERIOUSLY.... SO right now IM TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM THIS MORNING!
yeee I'm still tha same but my MOOD IS WAY BETTER!! If I think about it one more time what I've been through today IT'S NOTHING, UNECESSARY & STUPID BUT YALL KNOW 
love is blind and I was blind this morning!

PS: #1 ADVICE: DONT BE SAD LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR BEEING UNHAPPY, I KNOW I HAD BAD EXPERIENCES IN MY LIFE, BUT I KNOW TRUE LOVE STILL EXIST SO I'LL STILL BELIEVE IN  FAIRYTALES ♥

Time to sleep!

           

    It's finally time to say bye to ''SUMMER TIME'' and HELLO to my senior year!

life is too short!

It's really funny how you hate someone in a second & the next you become her best friend! Life is too short to hate on people, just spread some love instead....

Papa Jackie!

It's been 4 years that I moved to Brossard and I tried almost all the chinese restaurant but none of them is good. Papa Jackie it's definitely ONE OF THE BEST maybe because the owner of the restaurant was from my hometown & it had a taste that I was used to! My family with Poon family went to Papa Jackie for lunch because Jia Poon grandma came from Toronto & like always my mom wanted to treat her for diner.