Reason!

There's a lot of people asked me why I have changed so much in such short time but I didn't really changed. It's just tired. I'm tired of trying. I know people will be like WHAT THA FUCK? but yeah it's the only thing I can say bout what I feel right now? TIRED OF WHAT? tired of always being the first one to ask what's happening in their life, the first one to be like, OH I miss the old time, the first one to always push harder and try to hold our friendship.I'm not saying that they're not trying is just I feel like if one day I'll stop to try would you still hold our friendship like everytime I did? Some people would but some wont. & that's what I realised today, one of my closest friend ask me what's happening.... & After I saw that I'm not the only one trying there's people out there that still care. #feltgreattho 

Can't sleep! thinking over & over

Let's get to know each other

Faye & Jassu posted two questions tags already so I've decided to do one since I've got nothing to do...hahaha It's not really my type but there's a first time for everything!
 so this is my first QUESTIONS TAG!  (god damn it's 100 questions... so hummm let's be patient I was talking to me mouahahahahahahaha) 

1-One of your scars, how did you get it?
A: on my left arm after a bad accident when I was 2 yo

2-What is on the walls in your room?
A: My wall looks like the america's white house 

3- Do you snore, grind your teeth, or talk in your sleep?
A: I snore, mostly in class 8)

4-What type of music do you listen to?
A: Mostly R&B but I also like Acoustic cover version  and Reggae

5- Do you know what time you were born?
A: I have no idea I think is in the morning...

6- What do you want more than anything right now?
A: I wanna pass all my grades.

7- What do you miss?
A: My old days at Mtl

8- What is your most prized possesions?
A: Uggs and my winter coat; Moose Knuckles + my DKNY purse

9- How tall are you?
A: 163cm (5ft3)

10-Do you get claustrophobis?
A: No, rarely because I love being with people ... hehehe8) 

11- Do you get scared in the dark?
A: always I'm a big PUSSY when it comes to darkness

12- The last person that make you cry?
A: my friend

13- What's your worst fear? 
A: Loose your closest friends and ghost 

14- What kind of eye/hair color do you like on the opposite sex?
A: eye: chestnut brown/ hair: black 

15- Where can you see yourself proposing/being proposed to at?
A: on the beach or somewhere meanful

16-Coffee or energy drink?
A: Without hesitation, coffee

17-Favorite pizza topping?
A: Meat and mushroom

18- If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
A: pancake (my homie is making one for me yummmm)

19- Favorite color of all time?
A: light color

20-Have you ever eaten a goldfish?
no..

21- What was the first meaningful gift you've ever received?
A: a scrapbook handmade by my closest friends

22- Do you have a crush?
A:yes

23- Are you double jointed?
A: no

24- Favoite clothing brand?
A: Polo; Polo Ralph Lauren

25-Who is the hottest female/male celebrities?
A: Alan Luo, George Nozuka, Rainie Yang, Kim Kardasian, Chad Micheal Murray, Ushton Kutcher

26- Do you have a pet right now?
A:no but I used to have one

27-What kind is it?
A: husky

 28- Would you fall in love knowing that the person is leaving ?
A: Yes , #YOLO

29- Say a number from one to ten 
A: IR+

30-Blondes or brunettes?
A:brunettes

31-Have you been out of the Canada?
A: Yes

32- Your weaknesses?
A: being in love.....hypersensitive

33-Met anyone famous?
A: Jreyez, Ryan Higa, Brian Puspos, Jason chen, Jra,Tommy C.

34-First job?
A: at my daddy's restaurant

35- Ever done a prank call?
A: Of course

36- Do you think everyone out there has a soulmate?
A: why not?

37- What were doing before you filled this out?
 A: listening to French songs... 

38-Have you ever had surgery?
A: Yes for my arm...

39- What do you get complimented bout most?
A: That I'm always happy

40-Have you ever had braces?
A: No, I have perfect teeth.8D

41. What do you want for your birthday?
A: something meaninful

42. How many kids do you want? 
A: 2 or 4.  


43. Were you named after anyone?
A: Clawn or clauclau... childhoodfriend call me  GUIGUI...


44. What is the biggest turn off of the opposite sex?
A: Douchbag


45. What is one thing you miss about high school?
A: I'm gonna miss my friends that's for sure and free time 


46. What kind of shampoo do you use?
A: w/e because I used the one that's in sale with a big discount


47. Do you like your handwriting?
A: no 


48. What is your favorite lunch meal?
A: Filet de poisson


49. Any bad habits?
A: Sometimes I can have a really bad attitude when I don't lilke someone...#MEAN  


50. Are you a jealous person? 
A: damn god, YES!


51. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
A: yes but I'll be afraid of me because I have a BITCH ATTITUDE! 


52. Do you agree your friends with benefits?
A: NO... 


53. Do looks matter? 
A: Yes but I can like someone that's not involve with fashion.


54. How do you release anger?
A: I'm used to hit my locker and add a "FUCK" at the end 


55. What's your main goal in life?
A: be happy and have a successful life... built a family 


56. What was your favorite toy as a child?
A: my teddy bear


57. How many numbers are in you cell phone?
A: uncountble


58. Were you a fan of Barney as a kid?
A: YES


59. Do you use sarcasm?
A: ALWAYS 


60. Mashed potatoes or macaroni and cheese?
A: Mashed potatoes


61. What do you look for in a guy?
 A: voice, eyes.


62. Two hobbies?
A: singing and going out.  


63. What's your favorite TV shows?
A: family chanel's series & chinese (tw,hk,kr) ; Hot shot & Wizard of the waverly place , 70's show


64. What's the best way to deal with your enemis?
A: my fist on their face when I'm tired of them!


65. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
A: hum red bean


66. Do you have a computer in your room?
A: YES


67. Plans for tonight?
A: Sleepover with my homies. 


68. What's the fastest you've ever gone in a car?
A: I don't drive..


69. What are you listening to?
A: I'm officially missing you- tamia


70. Last think you drank?
A: Tea♥


71. Last person you talked on the phone?
A: Daddy♥


72. The first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
A: His smile and his eyes including his voice


73. What do you like to do in your spare time?
 A: Hang out with my friends & watching Tv


74. Favorite month of the year? 
A: January ♥

75. What's your favorite type of candy?
A: I dont have one personnally 


76. Have you ever really and truly had a best friend?
A: Yes.


77. What is your hair color?
A: Dark Black


78. Eye color?
A: brown black


79. Favorite fast food place?
A: Panini


80. Favorite restaurant? 
A: no one specific


81. Do you like sushi?
A: Yes.


82. Last thing you watched?
A: A really funny video : a guy doing stupid funny prank 


83. Play any musical instruments?
A: Flute and little bit of guitar


84. Kisses or hugs?
A: Hugs♥ 


85. Relationships or one night stands? 
A: Relationships.


86. What was the last thing you bought? 
A: Faye's cake


87. What are you wearing right now?
A: HOODIE with a sweatpants 


88. Where is your favorite place to be?
A: somewhere that's calm


89. How many pillows do you sleep with?
A: 3


90. Have you ever been to Canada?
A: I'm Canadian


91. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
A: food and accessories♥


92. What do you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
A: god 


93. What do you like about fall?
A: the color of the leaf and the calm weather


94. What do you like about summer?
A: the weather


95. What do you like about winter?
A: The snow


96. What do you like about spring? 
A:  the wind 


97. What is your favorite season?
A: Spring 


98. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
A: my close friends for my bd!


99. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
A: my panties.... 


100. The best feeling in the world for you?
A: to be with your lover or going out with friends

Viva la vida!

I miss you ,I miss the old us, I miss the old time, I miss the best moment together...... But I don't think that you do

First day!

It's actually my first day of 17 yo. I've learned so much in these past few years.... and few months
real friends are there for you no matter what... but those that doesn't show it only when you will incomes in a real problem. seriously, appreciate what you have before time force you to loose what you had!
YOLO, i'm finally 17 yo!

Regret?

I realised, you will learn a lot with the UPS and DOWNS that will enter in your life. Once, I've asked myself if I should regret? I once regret to be what I've been through but my friend told me that '' If we, could change those regrets, they wouldn't be such a imperfect world.'' Because of that, I though that my worries would be the end of the world, that my problems are major and I won't resolve it but the real problems that I've income with, was fear. FEAR sometimes can get you.   He can let you though that you were strong enough to overcome all the problems.But THAT makes you weak & blind. You are actually really afraid to face what you were avoiding from the start. The real questions wasn't Should I regret? but more Should I face it? Certainly, those actions that you made, those actions could really change all the matters. You always have to think about the consequences before being sure of what you think. I made a lot of mistakes and a lot of choices but those desicions are helping of being a better person. Right now, I'm not saying that all my desicions was right but one person told me that ''you're the only playing, I can be there for you but you are the only one that can make ''changes'' to your life.  I'm not here to decide what you should do but more like an advicer and help you to make decision.'' What happened to me,make me realise that I learned a lot from it: bad or good. They are a lot of people that enter and leave in your life but they're just a small part of it that are really what you thought they were and can make you choose to  loose everything for them. My mistakes was I was so afraid to loose,but what I really  lost was; myself. I lost the one that live like their are no tommorow. That little girl that WASN'T AFRAID at all. The one that didn't know what was fear. The one that only could smile and tell stupid jokes to make everyone happy. I'm not back because I can't go back in time to be what I've been but those decisions I've made, was positive. I could say I don't regret it because it's no longer an option  but more what you have to confront. The advice I'm giving to those people that will  need me when they want would be, ''don't force yourself or don't make conclusion so easily and just let it be.'' You have your entire life to think bout it so enjoy and live your life to the fullest!
YOLO#

THANK YOU ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS, WHAT I'VE BECOME TODAY IS BECAUSE OF YOU GUYS. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. I CAN'T TELL HOW MUCH I'M THANKFUL. THANK YOU<3